My Dearest Love,
Your last letter was beautiful!!! As I sit here writing my next letter to you, Sigur Rós’ new album echoes in the background. Their music always brings me to another place-a place of reflection on the past, present, and future. Every day is an absolute blessing. My heart breaks when people take life for granted. Can the bedrock of society be destroyed? It can if we fall prey or even numb to current attacks on marriage, family, and human life.
A beautiful quotation from St. Thérèse of the Little Flower of Jesus comes to mind, “Without love, deeds, even the most brilliant, count as nothing.” It is not enough to believe such truths in our heart and remain silent. We must witness these truths in our everyday life. The love that we share is a testament to that. I cannot imagine a life without you and our beautiful baby. As each day passes, I become less selfish and more selfless.
Whereas video games were an escape from reality for you, I always threw myself into my work. It was always about moving forward and being the best at what I did even if it meant distancing myself from loved ones. My outlook changed when I met you. As I look back at the chain of events, I realize that nothing was a coincidence, it was all part of God’s Divine Providence. It was only after I surrendered myself to our Lord that my life dramatically changed. I was ready to meet the man God created for me. I was ready to meet you!
In loving you, I have learned what it means to be loved. For years, I thought sacrifice meant I had to be the stronger person. That I had to be the glue that held everything together no matter the cost. This resulted in a misconstrued sense of what love was. Your love, however, has transformed me. I am more thoughtful, more confident, more giving. I know in my heart that I am loved. It is this awareness that enables me to love you and our baby with every inch of my being.
These past few weeks have been a whirlwind-relocation, new job, and new experiences. Through it all, I see how much we have grown as a married couple. In the past, high stress levels would have resulted in frustration and arguments. This time around, we are a united front. Disagreements have become constructive dialogue. I am in awe!! Even with our beautiful baby we continue to remain calm, respectful, and loving towards each other. What we have become as a married couple I hope to continue to nourish with you. Our baby is thriving and flourishing in such a happy and safe environment. If only all children could feel safe. Between rampant divorce and a push for same-sex “marriage,” our society has lost sight of what is important, and has focused instead on what feels good to the individual not on what is best for the family and the common good. What we should do to help correct this my love, is to continue to do what we are doing. That is, trying to live a happy, holy, and integrated married life with one another.
As the countdown begins for our family getaway, I cannot reiterate how much I am looking forward to this vacation. It has been a while since we were able to relax on the beach (our last vacation was our honeymoon!) Wow, time flies!! The thought of gazing at the stars with you while drinking a nice glass of wine brings a smile to my face. I have butterflies just thinking about it. This trip will be a first for many things: some alone time, our baby taking a plane, even being introduced to sand, playtime in the pool, and family. All in all, it will give me wonderful memories that will remain transfixed on my heart, mind, and soul. How could it not?! I have the both of you by my side. You are my heart!! I love you!!